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Question: Does this behavior sound insane?

(Posted by: Dylan on 2010-07-12 10:18:07)

Latley, my mental state of mind seems to be really unbalanced and feeling manic. I have a big problem with insomnia and falling/ staying asleep. Evrey time I fall asleep I have horrific, vivid, and gruesome nightmares and other times I have dreams that seem to make no sense, but I feel like their sending a message. Sleep in very uncomfortable and unrelaxing for me, and I always seem to feel tense and paranoid, thinking if I close my eyes, something bad will happen, or something bad will be waiting when I wake up. I'm always so tired, low energy, and strung out from not getting any sleep, I consume alot of caffiene to keep me going through the day. Latley caffiene, nicotine, and weed has been the only way I feel normal or clear- thinking. I'm going through alot of emotional mood swings and personallity changes, going from moderatly happy, to extremely depressed, to severely enraged & phsycho like impulses, confused, dazed, memory loss, panicing, stressed, to euphoria, and then sometimes I just black out, and find myself doing something else, and have no idea how I got their. I've also been hearing stuff and having random- like hallusenations. Sometimes I get this paranoia that evreyone is out to get me and the world is gone to sh*t. I'm never in the mood to socialize with people or sometimes relate to what their saying or feeling at all. It's like I have no middle grounds, I'm either dull and totally zero emotion or overly- emotional mood swingy. I'm either really, really euphoric and happy, excited or I'm either really, really angry, adrenaline- fueld, and feel homicidal/ suicidal at the same time. I wanna be a filmmaker, which encourages me to be creative and try to keep an open mind of things I love & understand in this world, but I feel like I don't know how to shut this creative button off in my brain. It seems like evreyday, I start to fade out of reality and the understanding of people and my surroundings. Could I be going insane?

Posted by: Jody on 2010-07-17, 21:08:51

Get off the weed. Get your life and your sanity back. Talk to a psychiatrist after you've been off the pot for 3-4 days and describe all your symptoms. He can put you into a treatment program, prescribe medication to help with withdrawal and whatever else you need. You are describing borderline personality disorder and could have bipolar with it and an anxiety disorder, panic disorder, maybe even post traumatic stress disorder too. You are dissociating (memory loss), have derealization and depersonalization as well. Get the pot out of your system and find out what's really going on. Expect to feel twice as bad for the first week. The doctor can put you into detox for the first 3-5 days and get you started on medication and a treatment plan. If you have insurance go for the 28 day inpatient treatment. It's the best thing you'll ever do for yourself. It will give you a start on that career you want.

Posted by: HoRIzoN on 2010-07-12, 10:31:24

You may have bipolar or insomnia or aneamia. i suggest that if you feel worse, then you should go to the docto and ask for bipolar diagnostics anf if you are bipolar then you can have either counselling or medication. Take a blood test to see if you are aneamic. Talk toyour doctor about your sleeping pattern. You may have a rare slepping pattern which you can do nothing about, or you may get sleeping pills. Good Luck!